Life and Alcohol

After managing 7 days AF two weeks ago I have fell on and off the wagon since then so day 1 again for me today. I do wonder if I’m turning to drink as I feel a bit of a failure in some aspects of my life, mainly work. I achieved a 2:1 degree (many moons ago) but then have jumped from mediocre job to job with wages to match. I’m lucky to have a loving husband and two children (who are my greatest achievements) but I feel a failure as I am not some high flying earner and am now coming up to 45. I feel this feeling is the cause of my unhappiness and why I reach for the wine. Until I can feel better about myself and what I have achieved I do not think I will see the wine witch gone.